There is such a difference between feeling helpless and hopeless.
Right now I feel helpless against my husband’s disease. I know we are doing all we can to fight it but even with that I feel like we aren’t doing enough or doing the right things to treat him.
Last night I cried at softball practice not really over anything specific but more the idea that all of this is a lot to deal with. And the plans we had for our future are different than the ones we had made.
In the middle of that sea of feeling helpless I’m not hopeless. I have hope that things will stretch out for the most amount of time and that he will be able to spend some quality time with the kids and me before he reaches whatever destination he’s going to reach in his journey.
I want to believe that there is a bigger reason for all this happening and while I know later on down the road I will make those connections, right now in the midst of the battle it all seems like there is nothing special about this situation and that we are just another statistic.
Helpless
1. unable to defend oneself or to act without help. 2. uncontrollable
Hopeless
feeling or causing despair about something.
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