Page 5 of 365 – Helpless vs Hopeless

There is such a difference between feeling helpless and hopeless.

Right now I feel helpless against my husband’s disease. I know we are doing all we can to fight it but even with that I feel like we aren’t doing enough or doing the right things to treat him.

Last night I cried at softball practice not really over anything specific but more the idea that all of this is a lot to deal with. And the plans we had for our future are different than the ones we had made.

In the middle of that sea of feeling helpless I’m not hopeless. I have hope that things will stretch out for the most amount of time and that he will be able to spend some quality time with the kids and me before he reaches whatever destination he’s going to reach in his journey.

I want to believe that there is a bigger reason for all this happening and while I know later on down the road I will make those connections, right now in the midst of the battle it all seems like there is nothing special about this situation and that we are just another statistic.


1. unable to defend oneself or to act without help. 2. uncontrollable


feeling or causing despair about something.


Published by Patty Gordon

I’m Patty Gordon, a 40+ year old school lunch lady married to a crane mechanic. Our days are anything but normal as he works “construction worker hours” and I take care of our two elementary school aged kids, Chihuahua Mr Biggs, Pitbull Cali, and French Bulldog MooMoo. I blogged a few years ago under different names but have landed with the name this time around. The term 365MomMe comes from the idea that I’m a mom and I’m me 365 days a year. Kids call me Mommy but I see myself as MomMe.

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